I want to talk with my mother on things that happen to me in these few day but I cant because I don't really share my personal life with her. Some more I am afraid that she may be disappointed with me and she definitely will ask me transfer back to hometown and which I just cant. There was too many painful memories for me back then. Talking about mother, I always envy people around me that seem really close with their mother whereby they even can share almost everything. But not my mother because whenever I try to start a mother-daughter kind of conversation, she will be there for a while and after that she not there anymore. It make difficult for me to talk with her. Plus, she have this look that even none of us in the family wouldn't dare to say anything else. But, of course apart of communication skills, she is the best mother ever because she care about her children including me. Anyway, the point of this entry is, I need my mother at this point of time but I cant talk about it with her because I know what she going to say to me after ward. That will leave me with more pain in me.
I wish I can be somewhere else....somewhere far from here where nobody know me. Can I hate my life? YES for the bad things and NO for the good thing. Gosh..I need time flies fast. Wish that tomorrow will be 27th Feb 2010. I want to be the new me which is more stronger then ever.
p.s: I don't even know what I want and what I should do right now. Only time can heal me
Time will heal.. Be strong babe! *Hugs*
ReplyDeleteMarvic. Well my mum cm2 gak. I think smua mums cm2 kot. Tp I wat biase je. So cheer up ok!
ReplyDeleteBe strong dear... time will heal ur heart...and ur pain...though there will always still be a scar there.. but it will always remind u..that there r still good things in ur life...becos..when there r bad ones...then u will be more appreciative of the good things u have.. *HUGS*
ReplyDeleteLife might not look beautiful all the time... but be glad that those beautiful moments in life did come to you and I'm sure they will come to u in the future. ;) Never give up hope on life my dear. remember that..things happen for a reason...
wish my mom with me but she is away.. :(
ReplyDeleteits hard to talk to mom, she will thinks she is right
ReplyDeleteI baru je cheer up Debbs kat her blog, seems like everybodi tgh depresi ni kan Marvic? I pun sedih gak ni but trying to forget by keeping busy. Keep urself busy sweetie, nanti u won think abt the prob so much. It will still be there but u can save your worries for another day. TOnight pamper urself and make urself feel good, big hugs! :):):)
ReplyDeleteShirley, hugs back..i'll be strong..promise u this..
ReplyDeleteFazzy,my mom..hahaha..tp aku sayang dia
Demonic Angel,yup, u are right as things happen for a reason that still yet to discover...
TH, mother always thinks that they are right ..but then they only want to protect us right...u as a mother pon sure paham kan..
Marzie, entah la marzie, sindrom depresi ni nak lawan H1N1 nyer phenomenon kot..kekeke..will pamper myself for a getaway very soon